I’m not scared of heights. I’m not scared of the dark. I’m scared of my sketchbooks.
Well not actually scared of the physical item but more of what comes with owning one… the sketching! I think I’ve spoken about this before but I can’t put pencil to paper. When I was younger I used to be really good at drawing (for an 8 year old – I won competitions and everything) and I don’t know what happened, but I have no confidence in my drawing skills now. I know they say practice makes perfect but I can’t practice – I actually have a fear of making a mark on paper. I have tried to conquer this fear a couple of times since being at Uni:
The first time was when our tutor set us a challenge. I went to a coffee shop with my friends and did some people watching back in November 2010 (I can’t draw people)…
…I tried sketching again on a holiday in April 2011 (I don’t mind this sketch actually)…
…and twice in June 2011 – once for this building on a trip to Ely (which I really like)….
… and lastly on a bus journey (which is rubbish).
You might notice that all of those are using pen so that I had to commit and couldn’t rub it out. I tried using a selection of pens to add depth and different textures – Sharpies, thick markers, fine liners and biros. I kinda like the effect and I think I’m definitely better at drawing buildings or things with square angles and straight lines.
I think mainly I’m just scared of making a mistake and messing the lovely clean page up. I know that even the best artists and illustrators don’t produce their polished finals with the first sketch. I think that Photoshop is to blame – I can always press cmd + Z and undo on screen!
But the other day I decided that it’s time to face my fear and use my sketchbooks – I have over 25 unused sketchbooks!
Here’s just 19 from my collection – a mixture of ones I have bought myself, made myself and quite a few that friends have bought for me as gifts!
Sketchbooks – the perfect gift for a creative, right? You can carry it with you everywhere you go to sketch and write down all your lovely creative thoughts and visions. And that is my new plan. I’m not going to be scared of my sketchbooks.
I think I’ll carry on in that sketchbook I started using to get my confidence up and see what happens. I’d like to start sketching some patterns and typography at some point when I’ve got the hang of things. Maybe I’ll even do some collages too!
Wish me luck…